When English teachers throw shade back…
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No, you can’t deny women their basic rights and pretend it’s about your ‘religious freedom.’ If you don’t like birth control, don’t use it. Religious freedom doesn’t mean you can force others to live by your own beliefs. —
President Barack Obama
Blink 182 bringing out the feels -
Its been one of those depressing nights. You know, those nights where you get too retrospective and bummed about your life? Why is everyone else succeeding? Why do i feel stuck? What am I doing wrong? The typical self-loathing stuff. It happens to me from time to time.
Anyway, I was thinking back on a really good friend I use to have. I mean, he’s still my friend, but its different now. We use to talk almost every night about nothing at all. The conversation was completely random and wonderful. He told me alot about himself and trusted me. I told him more about myself than probably anyone I know, including my family. Now, when we talk, it feels so generic. I mean, don’t just ask me what’s new and act like I didn’t talk you through a bad drug trip and don’t know how you got that scar!
We mainly talked through IM every night. Since we were both loner losers, we would just get drunk on the weekends and talk to each other about movies and music and our shitty lives. On one of these occasions, we got around to the topic of his love for Blink 182. Now, I’m not proud of this, but I was REALLY into Blink 182 when I was younger. I could never find anyone else who would admit to loving them too, and here was my best friend telling me that we’ve been the same since before we knew each other! We both agreed that this song, “Carousel” was the greatest. It was a great night. We both got drunk and just listen to our old CDs and talked.
Now when I hear this song, it feels like I could be singing it by myself. I fully realize the realities of life, which is tolerable….but a lot better when you have someone to vent and suffer right along with you. We’re not in the same boat anymore. Even though not much has changed, the lyric “I talk to you every now and then/ I never felt so alone again” feels so true with us. Maybe the novelty of me has worn off now that he has a better life with more responsibilities and a girlfriend? Maybe I’m working out some deeper feelings? Maybe I’m just being selfish and want attention? Maybe I just want someone who will listen without judging me all the time?
Maybe I just miss my friend…..
There’s no real point to this. I just needed to get this out. I can’t keep trying to surpress the emotions simply because no one is there to hear about them.
" I guess its just another
I guess its just another
I guess its just another night alone.”
Interests of Ben Wyatt
Ben’s a complex man.
this is why i love everything about him!